Dawson’s love was selfish. He had this idea about them ending up together. He thought he’s supposed to love her. So he loved her because he thought it’s what he had to do. I don’t believe he ever LOVED HER loved her. Even when they were together, he couldn’t reach to her. Not completely. They were cute, like all teenagers in their honeymoon phase are, but I don’t he ever realized what being her boyfriend means. He knew her too well. He knew what he has to do, so there was no passion, no mystery, no room for mistakes.. so everything they did was kinda boring. They were creating this stupid little arguments so they have something to fight over, but that never felt natural.
Pacey, on the other hand, did a lot of mistakes. He often said wrong things or did something that was not good at the time, and so did she.. but that’s kinda the point of the relationship. Finding out something new about the other person everyday, sticking when it’s hard and trying your best to fix things.
Pacey started hanging out with Joey because Dawson asked him too, but continued doing so because he liked her. Pacey always thought he’s not good enough for her. Even in the end, when he had his own restaurant he felt like that’s not good enough. And his love, his love was never selfish. Loving her was all that he needed. Those were the most important moments in his life, when he knew he loves someone.. for him, loving someone was the greatest triumph in the world. For Dawson, Gretchen was really good. But when Joey saw them together, she was kinda jealous. And I was like, “What’s wrong with you? You have this amazing guy who is in love with you head over heals and you’re still worrying about Dawson?”.
Dawson has this weird effect on Joey. He keeps that part of her, he keeps her childhood on the palm of his hand. And people are never eager to grow up, so she takes comfort in him, because he takes her to that place where she doesn’t have to grow up. But with Pacey, she was actually planning her future. Thinking about it and looking forward to it, because her future had him in it. And that’s why I believed her when she said she always knew who she’s supposed to end up with. As much as I believe Pacey loved Joey more than Dawson, I believe Joey never loved Dawson as she loved Pacey. She knew she can run to Dawson. She knew she can climb in his room and all of her problems will be gone, even for a minute. But in the, she stopped running. You know, she didn’t have the need to climb in his room, because she wasn’t scared anymore. Future was there. 10 years from now she was talking about 10 years before is finally here, and she’s ready for it. So her love for Pacey prevailed. And I guess that’s the love that counts. Love that is stronger and true.. and no one said we have to grow up. You know, growing up is not one time deal, we’re growing up our whole life, from one year to another. But we have to let some things go. No one said we have to grow up, but the fact is, we can’t stay kids forever. We spend first years our adult life running from the fact we’re not kids anymore, and then all of a sudden we realize that being an adult is not that bad. So I guess that happened to Joey.. she finally let Dawson go, she stopped running and she saw the future she imagined is here, and Pacey should be a part of it.